Life Is Great...

Shadow of love

2009-08-09T17:50:00.001+08:00

1234...I Love You

2009-03-29T22:54:00.003+08:00

1-2-1-2-3-4
Give me more loving than I’ve ever had
Make me feel better when I’m feeling sad
Tell me I’m special even though I know I’m not
Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Barely getting mad
I’m so glad I found you
I love being around you
You make it easy
Its as easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4
There’s only one thing
To Do
Three words
For you
(I love you) I love you
There’s only one way to say
Those three words
That’s what I’ll do
(I love you) I love you
Give me more loving from the very start
Piece me back together when I fall apart
Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends
Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
You’re the best that I’ve had
And I’m so glad I found you
I love being around you
You make it easy
It’s easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4
There’s only one thing
To Do
Three words
For you
(I love you) I love you
There’s only one way to say
Those three words
That’s what I’ll do
(I love you) I love you
(I love you) I love you
You make it easy
It’s easy as 1 2 1 2 3 4
There’s only one thing
To Do
Three words
For you
(I love you) I love you
There’s only one way to say
Those three words
That’s what I’ll do
(I love you) I love you
(I love you) I love you
1-2-3-4
I love you
(I love you) I love you

You can listen to the lovely song here...
http://www.4shared.com/file/69127239/7f334954/Plain_White_Ts_-_1234__I_Love_You__.html

Old Makan...New Makan

2009-03-29T22:25:00.006+08:00

Hmmm...One is quite an old experience (probably about 1 month ago) at Restoran Belanga Sajian Belanga Kg Pandan KL. My first experience of this restaurant was back in 2001. Not much changes from those days. There are still plenty of dishes to choose from. What a sumptous feast - I had a plate of white rice, some broccoli, a couple of spoon of grilled beef, fried chicken wing and a bowl of kerang rebus!
The other makan was at Jombali at Ground Floor of Danga City Mall JB. Parking here is free so that's one of the attraction of this place hehehe. I had Silang Beef Kuey Teow (something like Beef Kungfu Kuey Teow) and the yummy Vanilla with Pineapple Puree. I think the vanilla will be a must-have in my coming visits.

Grand Prix Fever!

2009-02-07T13:04:00.006+08:00

While PETRONAS is having it's Grand Prix promo offering 2 BMW525i Sports & 388 Diamond Grandstand tickets for the coming Malaysian F1 Grand Prix 2009, I was having a near-F1 experience at Plentong Karting Circuit (off Pasir Gudang Highway)!

It's one of the longest kart track in Malaysia.

33 on WSA1533!

2009-02-01T04:01:00.004+08:00

What a coincidence! I had a service number of 33 when I went for a regular10,000km service before CNY.

And then had her washed when I was back in KL. It was time to get her clean after a couple of weeks.

My birthday dinner with comey luv

2009-01-17T20:48:00.004+08:00

Birthday dinner at Hard Rock KL. Yummy & lovely!

This is what she had.
And I had a sirloin steak (i think).

Old Vs New

2008-11-22T11:43:00.005+08:00

5511 next to 1533. Humongous isn't she, WSA1533. Wanted WSA5511 but the number holder was holding it for more than RM2,000.

But hey, 33 is my favorite number! Better still! The SA in the WSA is for my beloved comey and SA is her acronym. The registration could've been made earlier but I dearly wanted WSA. Even her boss, G, asked her "Is the SA stand for your name?".

Life is great. Alhamdullillah. Enjoying every moment, every breath to the utmost.

A Blog Posted by Singapore 's Youngest Millionaire

2008-10-10T19:01:00.005+08:00

I wanna be a millionaire too! Millions of happiness that is...Read more about the millionaire story posted by Adam Khoo below.

Some of you may already know that I travel around the region pretty frequently, having to visit and conduct seminars at my offices in Malaysia, Indonesia, Thailand and Suzhou (

China

). I am in the airport almost every other week so I get to bump into many people who have attended my seminars or have read my books.

Recently, someone came up to me on a plane to KL and looked rather shocked. He asked, 'How come a millionaire like you is travelling economy?' My reply was, 'That's why I am a millionaire.' He still looked pretty confused. This again confirms that greatest lie ever told about wealth (which I wrote about in my latest book 'Secrets of Self Made Millionaires'). Many people have been brainwashed to think that millionaires have to wear Gucci, Hugo Boss, Rolex, and sit on first class in air travel. This is why so many people never become rich because the moment that earn more money, they think that it is only natural that they spend more, putting them back to square one.

The truth is that most self-made millionaires are frugal and only spend on what is necessary and of value. That is why they are able to accumulate and multiply their wealth so much faster. Over the last 7 years, I have saved about 80% of my income while today I save only about 60% (because I have my wife, mother in law, 2 maids, 2 kids, etc. to support). Still, it is way above most people who save 10% of their income (if they are lucky). I refuse to buy a first class ticket or to buy a $300 shirt because I think that it is a complete waste of money. However, I happily pay $1,300 to send my 2-year old daughter to Julia Gabriel Speech and Drama without thinking twice.

When I joined the YEO (Young Entrepreneur's Organization) a few years back (YEO is an exclusive club open to those who are under 40 and make over $1m a year in their own business) I discovered that those who were self-made thought like me. Many of them with net worths well over $5m, travelled economy class and some even drove Toyota's and Nissans (not Audis, Mercs, BMWs).

I noticed that it was only those who never had to work hard to build their own wealth (there were also a few ministers' and tycoons' sons in the club) who spent like there was no tomorrow. Somehow, when you did not have to build everything from scratch, you do not really value money. This is precisely the reason why a family's wealth (no matter how much) rarely lasts past the third generation. Thank God my rich dad (oh no! I sound like Kiyosaki) foresaw this terrible possibility and refused to give me a cent to start my business.

Then some people ask me, 'What is the point in making so much money if you don't enjoy it?' The thing is that I don't really find happiness in buying branded clothes, jewelery or sitting first class. Even if buying something makes me happy it is only for a while, it does not last. Material happiness never lasts, it just give you a quick fix. After a while you feel lousy again and have to buy the next thing which you think will make you happy. I always think that if you need material things to make you happy, then you live a pretty sad and unfulfilled life.

Instead, what make ME happy is when I see my children laughing and playing and learning so fast. What makes me happy is when I see by companies and trainers reaching more and more people every year in so many more countries. What makes me really happy is when I read all the emails about how my books and seminars have touched and inspired someone's life. What makes me really happy is reading all your wonderful posts about how this BLOG is inspiring you. This happiness makes me feel really good for a long time, much much more than what a Rolex would do for me.

I think the point I want to put across is that happiness must come from doing your life's work (be in teaching, building homes, designing, trading, winning tournaments etc.) and the money that comes is only a by-product. If you hate what you are doing and rely on the money you earn to make you happy by buying stuff, then I think that you are living a life of meaningless.

Reward of my hard work...

2008-10-09T23:40:00.003+08:00

This will be the reward of my year long hard work...soon. Going after the Polished Metal metallic color. I'm purring already.

Baby I Love You...

2008-08-11T13:08:00.003+08:00

have I ever told you

how good it feels to hold you

it isn't easy to explain

and though I'm really trying

I think I may start crying

my heart can't wait another day

when you kiss me I've just got to say

(baby I love you)come on baby

(baby I love you)

baby I love only you

I can't live without you

I love everything about you

I can't help it if I feel this way

oh I'm so glad I found you

I want my arms around you

I love to hear you call my name

oh tell me that you feel the same

tell me that you feel

tell me that you feel the same

(baby I love you)

come on baby

(baby I love you)

baby I love only you

Unproductive Monday morning...

2008-08-11T12:15:00.005+08:00

It cannot be any more unproductive than layaning the movie Music & Lyrics the whole Monday morning...not to mention repeating the part where they show "Don't Write Me Off" and "Way Back Into Love" again and again countless times...

I woke up pretty late this morning too. P.S. I Love You occupied my wee hours. I couldn't sleep last nite, kept moving to the left and to the right on the bed, completed a couple NST's Sudoku puzzles, sipped a full cup of hot Vico and yet it was so hard for my eyes to shut. Just don't ask me why I watched the PSILY of all the other movies that I have.

Weekend was hard mentally. I needed some time off. So I went out to Stulang Laut to watch some "live" gigs with Abu. The one at BlueWave plays current crowd favorites, 80's rocks, and a few of The Beattles including I Want To Hold Your Hand which I sung out loud. Silly me. I missed my luv badly. And when I touch you i feel happy, inside, it´s such a feeling that my luv, I can't hideI can't hide, I can't hide...

I need some heart pumping song now. Gimme Gatecrasher.

Don't write me off...my version

2008-04-04T15:14:00.031+08:00

It’s never been easy for me
To find words to go along, with a melody
But this time there’s actually something, on my mind
So please forgive these few brief awkward lines

Since I’ve met you, my whole life has changed
It’s not just my choice of clothes and toiletries, you’ve rearranged
I was living in the past, but somehow you’ve brought me back
And I haven’t felt like this since before Your papa said bring IC copy next time I'm back

And while I know, based on my track record
I might not seem like the safest bet
All I’m asking you, is don’t write me off, just yet

For years I’ve been telling myself, the same old story
That I’m happy to live off my so called, former stupidities
But you’ve given me a reason, to take another chance
Now I need you, despite the fact, that you’ve marah, slap me with your hands

And though I know, I’ve already blown more chances
Than anyone should ever get
All I’m asking you, is don’t write me off, just yet
Don’t write me off just yet luv...

Luv, dance with me every night...

2008-04-04T15:14:00.011+08:00

It’s been so long
Since I’ve known right from wrong
Got no job, sometimes I just sit down and sob
Wondering if anything will go right
Or will you dance with me tonight

When the sun departs
I feel a hole down in my heart
Put on some shoes
Come down here and listen to the blues
Wondering if anything will go right
Or will you dance with me tonight

I’m looking at you
You’re looking at me
We’re the only two off the dance floor
Do you see what I see
Two broken lives working in harmony
Might make for a decent time
So get up and dance with me

I know that it seems that the grass will grow
Better on the other side of the barb wire fence
But that other side is not in sight
So I’m fine with what I have now
If you’ll dance with me tonight

What’s the point of life
If risk is just a board game
You roll the dice
But you’re just hoping that the rules change
What’s the point if you can’t bring yourself to say
Things you wanna say like
Dance with me tonight.

I Can't Smile Without You

2008-02-19T14:43:00.002+08:00

I couldn't smile for 21 days,
there were nights of flowing tears,
waiting for the 21th day,
I'm not okay.

You know I Can't Smile Without You,
I Can't Smile Without You,
I can't laugh and I can't sing,
I'm findin' it hard to do anything.

You see, I feel sad when you're sad,
I feel glad when you're glad,
If You only knew what I'm go ing through,
I just Can't Smile Without You.

You came along just like a song and brightened my day,
Who'd've believe that you were part of a dream,
Now it all seems light years away.

And now you know,
I Can't Smile WIthout You,
I Can't Smile Without You,
I can't laugh and I can't sing,
I'm finding it hard to do anything.

You see, I feel sad when you're sad,
I feel glad when you're glad,
If you only knew what I"m going through,
I just can't smile.

Now some people sa y happiness takes so very long to find.
Well I'm finding it hard leaving your love behind me.

And you see, I Can't Smile Without You,
I Can't Smile Without You,
I can't laugh and I can't sing,
I'm findin' it hard to do anything.

You see, I feel sad when you're sad,
I feel glad when you're glad,
If You only knew what I'm going through,
I just Can't Smile Without You...

History making day...

2007-12-27T17:12:00.005+08:00

Simply a history making day.

Nice car...

2007-10-01T14:10:00.000+08:00

It's not hard to guess whose Bentley the picture below isn't it?

The New Beginning...

2007-09-03T13:58:00.000+08:00

How's life without ciggie so far? Welll...my palate has been coping well ever since I stopped smoking from 1st September 2007. But my body seems to have a fondness to sleeping. Withdrawal syndrome?

Anyhow, I need to be Merdeka from nikotine!

Memories...

2007-08-30T11:45:00.000+08:00

(tears)...I never been hit by a woman, never come to one's house shivering meeting her parents, never plan to buy a house to be together, never bought flowers, never had the same fondness for bakeries, never korek hidung together, never prepared food together, never had my clothes and underwear washed, never had a woman massage my legs with tender loving care, never introduce one to my mom and my family except THIS ONE.

Main - main anyone?

2007-07-03T15:15:00.000+08:00

Me and my luv were playing at an artificial playground...at one of tons of hypermarkets in town (KL that is)...kinda rekindling memories of our childhood days.

My Luv...malu - malu sitting at merry-go-arround. Malu - malu but she never ceased to amaze me.

SHOCKED! This wasn't real. I was merely testing that thing.

Yummy..Makan @ Tmn Mayang PJ

2007-06-20T09:36:00.000+08:00

Seafood Fried Rice + Smoked Crab + Salted Fish

Anti-pesto

Ribena longan

Higgins Bertie - Casablanca

2007-05-11T15:39:00.000+08:00

Luvvv, I love you more and more as time goes by...

I fell in love with you watching Casablanca
Back row of the drive in show in the flickering light
Popcorn and cokes beneath the stars became champagne and caviar
Making love on a long hot summers night

I thought you fell in love with me watching Casablance
Holding hands 'neath the paddle fans in Rick's Candle lit cafe
Hiding in the shadows from the spies.
Moroccan moonlight in your eyes
Making magic at the movies in my old chevrolet

Oh! A kiss is still a kiss in Casablanca
But a kiss is not a kiss without your sigh
Please come back to me in Casablanca
I love you more and more each day as time goes by

I guess there're many broken hearts in Casablanca
You know I've never really been there. so, I don't know
I guess our love story will never be seen on the big wide silver screen
But it hurt just as bad when I had to watch you go

Oh! A kiss is still a kiss in Casablanca
But a kiss is not a kiss without your sigh
Please come back to me in Casablanca
I love you more and more each day as time goes by

Oh! A kiss is still a kiss in Casablanca
But a kiss is not a kiss without your sigh
Please come back to me in Casablanca
I love you more and more each day as time goes by
I love you more and more each day as time goes by

Jelajah Perak 2 - Gua Tempurung

2007-05-11T15:29:00.000+08:00

Pictures taken while I was touring Gua Tempurung. There were several pictures taken inside but poorly lit cave plus my 2Mpix Nokia 3250 aren't adequate to capture good pictures.

Jelajah Perak 1 - Lumut

2007-05-11T15:19:00.000+08:00

Pictures taken while I was touring Lumut.

Maya Hotel KL, Jln Ampang

2007-04-11T01:13:00.000+08:00

Going to stay here for a couple of nights. Nice...Very Nice.No No No...I'm not paid by Maya Hotel to do this.In fact, I'm paying good money to enjoy all these!

The bed...very comfortable. 4 plush pillows all for myself!

The TV set and working desk. The provide a host of DVDs hosted by the hotel. Only 24 hour free Broadband internet though. But very trendy setup.

You can view the bathroom from your bed. Sexy. The bathroom. Very chic. Mind you the provide all the amenities you can think of here!

The fridge. Cool. Incorporated into the TV set!

Another day of despair

2007-04-05T12:16:00.000+08:00

Could I be left in despair of false hopes and heart-wrenching lies holding to nothing but free air...

P.S. I Love You Lyrics

As I write this letter,
Send my love to you,
Remember that I'll always,
Be in love with you.

Treasure these few words 'til we're together,
Keep all my love forever,
P.S., I love you.

You, you, you.
I'll be coming home again to you, love,
And 'til the day I do, love,
P.S., I love you.
You, you, you.

As I write this letter,
Send my love to you,
Remember that I'll always,
Be in love with you.

Treasure these few words 'til we're together,
Keep all my love forever,
P.S., I love you.
You, you, you.

As I write this letter, (Oh oh oh)
Send my love to you, (You know I want you to)
Remember that I'll always, (Yeah)
Be in love with you.

I'll be coming home again to you, love,
And 'til the day I do, love,
P.S., I love you.
You, you, you.
You, you, you.
I love you.

Very Important Princess

2007-03-26T18:33:00.000+08:00

This could be reserved for my little princess? Orait tak luv? hehehe.

It's impossible

2007-03-19T11:56:00.000+08:00

Was listening to Julio Iglesias' It's Impossible...It's impossible not to love you, not to think of you, not to miss you again and again ma luv.

It's impossible,
tell the sun to leave the sky,
it's just impossible.

It's impossible,
ask a baby not to cry,
it's just impossible.

Can I hold you
closer to me and not feel you
going through me?
Split the second
that I never think of you?
Oh, how impossible.

Can the ocean
keep from rushing to the shore?
It's just impossible.

If I had you,
could I ever want for more?
It's just impossible.

And tomorrow,
should you ask me for the world,
somehow I'd get it.
I would sell my very soul and not regret it
For to live without your love
It's just impossible.

And tomorrow,
should you ask me for the world,
somehow I'd get it.

I would sell my very soul and not regret it
For to live without your love
It's just impossible.

Impossible,
Yes, to live without your love
It's just impossible.

My Life...Is Great

2007-03-01T08:42:00.000+08:00

“I, MS, shall take you, PSA, as my beloved wife, in richer and poorer, in sickness and good health, for the rest of my life”

I had dreamt of this from 13 December 2005, week in, week out without fail. Perhaps I dream too much. Or perhaps I'm just simply an incorrigible emotional fool. Wearing my heart on my sleeve, putting my ego down low, and many times sacrificing my pride to the extent I feel I'm worthless in your eyes.

Yes, I made mistakes, stupid mistakes. Yes, I'm not good with words and at times saying words I never meant to say. Yes, I don’t sing songs that you like to your ears. Every time, I ended up hurting the person I love the most. I'm sorry my luv. I never intentionally do all these to frustrate you, to disappoint you. Only God can tell how deeply sorry I am for what had happened. If I were to simply playing around with your feelings, I wouldn’t be coming to your home for the first time on 13 August 2005 knowing how much your parents don’t like me. If I were not serious, I wouldn’t be facing them again after making those stupid mistakes. I braved all those purely because of my love for you. It energizes me no matter how physically and emotionally torn I feel.

There’s no second, no minute, no hours, no day or night, no month that I don’t think about you. I truly do. I’ve cried shamelessly many nights regretting all the wrongs I did. There are other times, I even consider your proposal to let things go because for me the most important thing is for you to be happy. But I simply cannot even contemplate doing that because I cannot live without you. Whenever we take time offs after our arguments, our quarrels, you always say I will get over you over time. But I can tell you, I will get over time but not over you. Not the next one month, not the next one year, nor the next decade. NEVER.

I don’t expect you to understand me, certainly not in this short 2 years knowing me. But I want you to understand me over time for the rest of our lives. You think you know me well but I don’t think you feel the sincerity in me loving you. It’s always my mistakes first before what I did right all these while. People say one always remember the one bad thing you do and easily forget all the good things you’ve done. I experience it first hand.

I don’t expect you to change either. That’s how you are and I love you the way it is. I never expected you to change. In fact, I don’t want you to. I love the PSA I know. I fell for the PSA I met 2 years ago whom always be chirpy for whatever reason. I was attracted the way PSA hit me, the way PSA eat. I smile the way you rush to your favorite shop or run back to your office. I grin whenever you play your late phone doing some calculations.

I love you, ALWAYS.

P/S: On my way to office this 1/3 morning, I saw 1300 – 13 – 1300. It’s amazing that 13 rules my life.

It'll Always Be You...

2007-01-25T00:57:00.000+08:00

Love you...is when my life revolves you.
Miss you...is when I can't stop thinking about you.
Need you...is when I can't live without you.
Want you...is when I want to take care only you.
Hungry you...is when I'll give you all the love I have.
Music you...is when I have you lingering and singing in my mind.
You...are the person I wanna be with for life.

...doing this in the middle of the night, 400km away from you. CRAZY. I am crazy about you.

You Give Me Something

2006-11-28T14:42:00.000+08:00

Wanna take a break from blogging for a little while...need it :) not that there's much to readi about my ramblings here anyway hehehe.

James Morrison You Give Me Something
You want to stay with me in the morning
You only hold me when I sleep,
I was meant to tread the water
Now I've gotten in too deep,
For every piece of me that wants you
Another piece backs away.

'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might know my heart.

You already waited up for hours
Just to spend a little time alone with me,
And I can say I've never bought you flowers
I can't work out what the mean,
I never thought that I'd love someone,
That was someone else's dream.

'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something,
'Cause someday I might call you from my heart,
But it might me a second too late,
And the words I could never say
Gonna come out anyway.

'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something,
'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might know my heart.
Know my heart, know my heart, know my heart

Dancing In The Moonlight...

2006-11-23T11:33:00.002+08:00

..Am dancing in the moonlight with my luv. Rekindles me of the movie A Walk To Remember. Am in the mood for love...

Dancing in the Moonlight

We get it on most every night
When that moon is big and bright
It's a supernatural delight
Everybodys dancing in the moonlight

We get everybody here is out of sight
They dont bark and they dont bite
They keep things loose they keep it tight
Everybodys dancing in the moonlight

Dancing in the moonlight
Everybody's feeling warm and bright
It's such a fine and natural sight
Everybodys dancing in the moonlight

We like our fun and we never fight
You can't dance and stay uptight
It's a supernatural delight
Everybody was dancing in the moonlight

Dancing in the moonlight
Everybodys feeling warm and bright
It's such a fine and natural sight
Everybodys dancing in the moonlight

We get in on most every night
And when that moon is big and bright
It's a supernatural delight
Everybodys dancing in the moonlight

Dancing in the moonlight
Everybody's feeling warm and bright
It's such a fine and natural sight
Everybody's dancing in the moonlight

A Tribute To Perempuanku

2006-11-10T12:07:00.000+08:00

Am truly yours...

Irwansyah - Perempuanku

Biarkan aku di sini untukmu
Aku hanya ingin menghibur malam ini
Malam yg pasti menyenangkan untukmu
Dan tentu untukkuBiarkan di sini aku bernyanyi
Hanya untukku dan untuk menghibur kamu
Dan aku yakin senyummu tulus dan jujur
Hanya untukku

(Korus)
Perempuanku engkau cintaku
Tak mungkin bisa bila aku jauh darimu
Bisa bila ku pasti sedih
Ku cinta engkau

Cinta pada perempuanku
Semakin lama semakin ku tahu
Maksud hati tak hanya mencintaimu
Ku ingin habiskan hidupku
Hanya untukmu

(Ulang korus)

Ku cinta engkau perempuanku
Perempuanku

Sampai Menutup Mata...

2006-11-10T12:01:00.000+08:00

Sound very tragic... and luv, I'll love you sampai menutup mata.

Acha Septriasa - Sampai Menutup Mata

embun di pagi buta
menebarkan bau asa
detik demi detik ku hitung
inikah saat ku pergi

oh Tuhan ku cinta dia
berikanlah aku hidup
takkan ku sakiti dia
hukum aku bila terjadi

reff:aku tak mudah mencintai
aku tak mudah mengaku ku cinta
aku tak mudah mengatakan
aku jatuh cinta

senandungku hanya untuk cinta
tirakatku hanya untuk engkau
tiada dusta sumpah ku cinta
sampai ku menutup mata
cintaku sampai ku menutup mata
oh Tuhan ku cinta dia

berikanlah aku hidup
takkan ku sakiti dia
hukum aku bila terjadi

Be strong S...

2006-11-08T20:23:00.000+08:00

I met S again after a loooooong while since I had a conversation about his history long time ago. (Check my post history sometime in September last year)

M: Hey...It's been a while since we last spoke to each other!
S: Same here bro.
M: What have you been up to lately? You looked horrible dude!
S: Am I? Probably because of the load of my work. Work's been fun but pretty heavy lately.
M: Hmmmm...I don't think so. Not that I just knew you yesterday la dude!
S: Err...Really la. I'm fine.
M: Aha...I didn't ask you whether you're fine just now! Something is terribly wrong. The S I know only looked horrible because of the "L" word. Work will never get into him!
S: It's just something about....can we talk about something else?

The S I know will always be an incorrigible emotional fool...just like the name of my blog. A tribute to you S, truly a man of actions true to your words. Keep your chin up even when all your chips are down, for He is Most Merciful, Most Forgiving.

Me and you and a litle man named woof woof...

2006-11-05T16:43:00.000+08:00

This is me with luv's brown bag when we dropped by a book shop while window shopping. Metro, no? Ain't making me any less a man for sure! I was reading one of the car mags there. I've a fetish towards cars...I can read about them again and again and again...

...And this is luv coming out from one of KLCC's lifts towards the car park. Ain't she lovely? No make up. Just natural beauty. I love you...it'll never be enough repeating those words every hour every day...

It's been a week since I last saw you and I miss you dearly...Will not be back to KL to see next week too and that'd be two weekends in a row without a taste of that wonderful pair of lips...I LOVE YOU. woof woof tak tahan...

Anniversary dinner @ chilli's KLCC

2006-10-30T10:29:00.000+08:00

What a wonderful dinner that was...the food was great and the ambience was fantastic but the person I spent time with was much much better. Wouldn't trade anything for that. I love you...

This is our delicious desert...molten choc cake...very the yummy. Couldn't take pictures of the rest of the dinner. We had them in our tummy before my 3250 got in the way!

Fell in love again

2006-10-11T15:01:00.000+08:00

Looking at this picture before I sleep last nite...It's currently the pic that brighten my 3250. Fell in love again and again...Can't wait for our anniversary this Friday luv...

Busy day

2006-10-11T14:39:00.000+08:00

Busy day looks...Just what my luv think of me matters.

Took some time off to take pic.

Wonderful Life Part 1

2006-10-10T16:05:00.000+08:00

One of my favorite k-dramas, Wonderful Life. Looking at the happy pic, could this be Luv, NAI and me?

But one thing for sure, my wedding pic will surely has one similar to this below knowing how wacky me and luv are!

Here is the video for your viewing pleasure of the drama http://grouper.com/video/MediaDetails.aspx?id=458827

Amazing weekend...

2006-10-09T18:41:00.000+08:00

I had an amazing weekend. Close to break down a few times (actually I did...looked and sound horrible too) then thoroughly happy the next. I'm no jiwang. In fact I consider myself very good at concealing my inner feelings. However, when it comes to my luv, I crumble. The great wall surround my heart simply collapse. She's my everything to me and I hope I'm everything to her too...You're my everything by Santa Esmeralda lingers in my mind now. Alamak...it's getting tearry again la...

You can call me sissy if you want to, but I find it's absolutely nothing wrong with it neither does it making you less manly when you shed your tears. For me...It's just an avenue for a human being to express his/her emotions.

I love you...with tears of my true emotions. Remember that I rather have bad times with you than good times with someone else luv. Am not asking too much...just love me.

I honestly love you...

2006-10-05T08:41:00.000+08:00

Do get mad at me if that makes you feel better.
Don't layan me if it that makes you feel happier.
Ignore me for a while if you think you need more time and space.
But just wanna let you know, I honestly love you...(even with your brace).

Maybe I hang around here
A little more than I should
We both know I got somewhere else to go
But I got something to tell you
That I never thought I would
But I believe you really ought to know
I love you , I honestly love you

You don't have to answer
I see it in your eyes
Maybe it was better left unsaid
This is pure and simple
And you must realize
That it's coming from my heart and not my head
I love you , I honestly love you

I'm not trying to make you feel uncomfortable
I'm not trying to make you anything at all
But this feeling doesn't come along every day
And you shouldn't blow the chance
When you got the chance to say
I love you, I honestly love you

If we both were born
In another place and time
This moment might be ending in a kiss
But there you are with yours
And here I am with mine
So I guess we'll just be leaving it at this
I love you, I honestly love you
I honestly love you.

Working hard for my future...

2006-10-04T11:05:00.000+08:00

These are the latest pics of me working hard (ehem...) in the office. Plenty of paperwork to be done in the coming weeks before going for my field work i.e. planning, sales budget, presentation. Kena pakai banyak OLAY la kot pasni when I'm going to WAR heheheh...Cannot wait for this Friday though.

Please?

2006-10-04T09:13:00.000+08:00

Reminds me of Toni Braxton's Please...

If he needs good lovin (I got it)
If I need to heat it up (I got fire)
Make sure I'm the best (for him) for (sure)
He's running home to me for it
And he knows waht ever he wants (that im with it)
And he knows the perfect place (to come get it)
And he knows that every woman's in me.

You're every woman in the world to me Luv....

Bubur lambuk RTM Ipoh

2006-10-04T08:17:00.000+08:00

This is what I had for buka puasa yesterday. Quite nice. Unfortunately, I had no selera ...

Ring of love for you my luv...

2006-10-03T14:51:00.000+08:00

Isteri Luv,

I'll get you to wear this ring on our wedding day. I yang pilih ring ni tau. Bagus tak taste hubby you? ehehehehe. When? ehem...I'll surprise you soon.

Love you,
Hubby.

Wife prepare food for hubby...

2006-10-02T09:36:00.000+08:00

My heart melts big time looking at her preparing my buka puasa...

Grocery shopping for buka puasa...

2006-10-02T09:06:00.000+08:00

Love you...The first friday after I shifted to Ipoh. 2nd time fetching her from office. The first was the day before when I drove down from Ipoh straight to her office. Miss you a lot luv...

This one is taken during grocery shopping before buka puasa...

She cuts her hair short

2006-10-02T08:47:00.000+08:00

Her first pic after getting her hair cut on saturday.

...Amd this is her look on sunday with a white hair band. Macam princess tak?Cutenyeeeeeee...Lovely. MMMMuuuaaaahhhhh!

Say A Little Prayer Luv

2006-09-30T09:46:00.000+08:00

Say A Little Prayer for me daily luv...

From the moment I wake up
Before I put on my makeup
I say a little prayer for you..
While combing my hair now
And wond'ring what dress to wear now
I say a little prayer for you...

Chorus:
Forever, and ever, you'll stay in my heart, and I'll love you
Forever, and ever, we never will part, oh I love you
Together, forever, that's how it should be
Living without you
Would only mean heartbreak for me...

I run for the bus dear, while riding I think of us dear,
I say a lil prayer for you
At work I just take time, and all through my coffee break time
I say a lil prayer for you...

Chorus:
My darling believe me
For me there is no one but you
Say you love me too...

The love of my life

2006-09-28T11:29:00.000+08:00

I couldn't imagine life without you luv...

Incorrigible Emotional Fool

2006-09-28T11:25:00.000+08:00

I carry this whereever I go...Something special my luv wrote to me on 14 February this year...Call me an incorrigbleemotionalfool...

My luv...

2006-09-28T11:14:00.000+08:00

Me and the love of my life...

Start working...Start fasting too

2006-09-24T14:14:00.000+08:00

Today is the day I'll be moving up north. NO NO NO...not Prai, but Ipoh. My management has decided it's best for me to manage that area. I took that as a welcoming challenge. But, what a blessing it is. It's my future father-in-law's kampung! Coincident? I'd say it's fated. My car carries Ipoh registration plate too!

The best part of that management's decision is that am closer to my Luv! Looking forward to go down to KL every weekend. The first trip would be next week to buka puasa with you Luv (of course spend time with you too). Moreso, with the financial gains that I received...ehem...by moving by slightly south, I'm not complaining (with huge grin on my face). Luv, it won't be long before my entourage pinang you!

Gotta go now. Wanna buy some stuffs to prepare for my trip later after bukak puasa. To all muslims, Happy Ramadhan. May all of us enjoy this holy month with greater sense of belongingness and forgiveness.

Smile...Happy...Glad.

2006-09-13T12:37:00.000+08:00

Happy Anniversary ma luv...

AN MPO CHAMBER CONCERT AT DFP!

2006-09-12T09:47:00.000+08:00

The Malaysian Philharmonic Orchestra (MPO) ensemble will present a chamber concert on Wednesday, 13 September 06 at 6.30 p.m.

The ensemble will present works such as William Byrd’s ‘The Earl of Oxford’s March’. This arrangement for a brass ensemble was made by a leading British trumpeter, composer and conductor, Elgar Howarth. The ensemble will next present ‘Sonata pian’e forte alla quarta bassa’, composed by Giovanni Gabrieli which was originally scored for eight instruments. It was published in Venice in 1597.

Next, there will be a performance of ‘Music for Brass Octet’, one of a dozen works for various-sized brass ensembles composed by Anthony Plog. Dating from 1981, this work was dedicated to Edward Tarr whom the composer described as ‘a noted baroque trumpeter and scholar’.

The MPO ensemble will also perform ‘Masques’, composed by Claude Debussy in 1904, a work inspired by verses by a poet called Verlaine. This will be followed by ‘Short Stories’, a work by Finnish composer, Jukka Linkola. Premiered in Sovonlinnan, Finland, on 17 July 06, this work is described as a ‘concerto for brass ensemble’ . It was dated in 1992 and dedicated to a Swedish writer of children’s stories, Astrid Lindgren. Each movement in this work is inspired by one of Lindgren’s stories.

The concert is expected to last for an hour. Tickets are priced at RM10 for all seating categories. Bookings can be made by calling the Box Office at 03-2051 7007 or fax 03-2051 7077 or email dfp_boxoffice@petronas.com.my

Pretty Ugly

2006-09-02T10:15:00.000+08:00

Never really heard of this song...Up until a few weeks back. I find it nice. Period. Go try listening to it then judge yourself.

Pretty Ugly - Diari Seorang Lelaki

Dari semalam ku tunggu
Fikir kau pulang ke pangkuanku
Ku dengarkan lagu cinta
Pilihan terbaik kita

Ku mainkan CD berulang
Lupakan segala ucapan
Perpisahan yang kau pinta

Benar dikau ku cinta
Tiap detik ku puja
Kau sering perhatiku sambil belai rambutmu
Tak ingin aku lupa kenangan yang tercipta
Berikan aku diari ku tulis setiap hari

Terjaga dari tidurku
Terima panggilan dari jauh
Katakan saja kau rindu
Setahun ku hilang arah
Ku tempahkan tiket sehala
Malam ini kitakan bertemu
Tunggu di bawah lampu

Bercinta berkasih bagai Adam dan Hawa
Bergaduh selisih buat kita sempurna
Janganlah dipendam luahkan perasaan
Tiada benci di hati itulah destinasi

To his Coy Mistress

2006-09-02T10:03:00.000+08:00

I just read this wonderful poem by Andrew Marvell...nice.

Had we but world enough, and time,
This coyness, lady, were no crime.
We would sit down and think which way
To walk, and pass our long love's day;
Thou by the Indian Ganges' side
Shouldst rubies find; I by the tide
Of Humber would complain. I would
Love you ten years before the Flood;
And you should, if you please, refuse
Till the conversion of the Jews.
My vegetable love should grow
Vaster than empires, and more slow.
An hundred years should go to praise
Thine eyes, and on thy forehead gaze;
Two hundred to adore each breast,
But thirty thousand to the rest;
An age at least to every part,
And the last age should show your heart.
For, lady, you deserve this state,
Nor would I love at lower rate.
But at my back I always hear
Time's winged chariot hurrying near;
And yonder all before us lie
Deserts of vast eternity.
Thy beauty shall no more be found,
Nor, in thy marble vault, shall sound
My echoing song; then worms shall try
That long preserv'd virginity,
And your quaint honour turn to dust,
And into ashes all my lust.
The grave's a fine and private place,
But none I think do there embrace.
Now therefore, while the youthful hue
Sits on thy skin like morning dew,
And while thy willing soul transpires
At every pore with instant fires,
Now let us sport us while we may;
And now, like am'rous birds of prey,
Rather at once our time devour,
Than languish in his slow-chapp'd power.
Let us roll all our strength, and all
Our sweetness, up into one ball;
And tear our pleasures with rough strife
Thorough the iron gates of life.
Thus, though we cannot make our sun
Stand still, yet we will make him run.

Life Is Great...

2006-08-20T11:43:00.000+08:00

What an eventful one week it's been...from last Sunday 13th. Happy would be an understatement of how I feel. My heart has been smiling the glad-est it can be. Everything seems so smooth sailing after withstanding various hurdles to wait exactly a year! Alhamdullillah. It was such a wonderful day...1 year anniversary knowing you, and at the same time giving you plenty of time to know me better as a person.

My love is growing fonder of you every minute, every day luv. Going through all the adversities and made it to "luahkan perasaan" to you-know-who luv on August 13th made everything so sweet. If I can show how happy my heart feels, I believe no smiles in the world can describe it.

Plus with Liverpool winning the Community Shield game on the same day, I couldn't ask for more.

...Luv, I love you dearly with all my heart. I don't care what others think of me. The one that matters are what you and your family think of me. Will be going all out to be the man who can take of you, whom can guide you, whom can carry our dreams together. I might not have loads of memories with you in the past cause what I want is memories together in the future. That'll be in the next stage next year luv. Tunggu...

I LOVE YOU...

2006-07-25T07:50:00.000+08:00

Falling in love with you again and again my luv...

Can't Waittttttt...

2006-07-18T22:05:00.000+08:00

"Can't wait for what?"...errr..."can't wait to be back in KL away from Bangi", "can't wait for this training to end", "can't wait to munch San Francisco's Egg Muffin"...But most of all, "can't wait to see my woman up close and personal again daily". It's been a terrible one month where I only manage to see her once or twice a week. I miss her smiles, voices, smell, style, smacks...I miss everything about her. No words can describe how much I miss her.

Luv, I can miss my meal even when I'm hungry, but nothing can get me away from missing you cause even when I dream of you, the sweetest dream will never do, I'd still miss youuuuuu.

Over the past one month has also been a testing time both me and Luv. Quarrels like we never did before. Rambles over many things. Sometimes jealous of small-small things. There was one evening, she almost call IT off. I felt half of me gone - spiritually. I prayed and prayed and prayed for HIM to give me calmness to my messy piece of mind. The very next morning, I was ready to let things be for I want the best for her. Looked lost. No calls, No SMS like always...Until late that morning I received her SMS...

Wellll, the point is...We survived that. Don't ask me about the future. I can't answer you that. But believe me, I'll still be by your side when you're 64.

The irony is, we gaduh again today. It hurts me everytime. But remember...I LOVE YOU anyway.

my last day at Central

2006-06-16T18:36:00.000+08:00

Today...Is the last day of my attachment at our Central Region office. Kinda sad leaving all the Central guys behind. Not after so many happy memories and valuable experiences shared. Plenty of things to write but I'm gasping for breath here...Had a "very good time" just now.

Gotta let my mind and body recuperate...Ahhhhh....Best. Opppsss, not going to let you to wander into the wilderness of notty thoughts. Till then, ciao.

Change of plan...(headache)

2006-05-31T18:40:00.000+08:00

Instead of going for my induction tomorrow, I'll be heading to Kuala Terengganu tomorrow instead. Will be there just for a day though. Leaving early morning then come back here later that evening.

Another change is I'd be going for a Market Seeding program for 3 months. 1 month residential training and the other 2 months I'd be placed at different departments. Honestly...They should have done this much earlier rather than after spending days of uncertainty like now.

Anyhow, will enjoy every bit of the experience though.

Till then, assalamualaikum wbt.

(Up up and) Away...

2006-05-29T19:14:00.000+08:00

Will be away from my luv for 2 months...Far away from bustling KL. Training.

Luv...I'll miss you dearly. Surely bring along the yellow teddy bear along hehehe. The one on your table will be my eyes watching you.

Ever wonder how lovely my luv is?

2006-05-19T19:06:00.000+08:00

The face that I'll never get tired looking at...My lovely sophie.

Life has been great but tiring lately...

2006-05-19T18:58:00.000+08:00

It's been quite a while since I last put my rambling words here...Not intentionally but purely because of my hectic training schedule ever since I joined Petronas, to be exact - PETRONAS DAGANGAN slightly more than a month ago. This life defining moment will be a key step for me to marry my loved one.

And surely will miss the next two months beginning 1st June going for a paid holiday...ehem...induction training actually. Will miss you my super dearest luv...

That's all for now, will try to write more as when I can afford to slot some minutes of my life in the future...

12,13,14.

2006-04-04T12:50:00.000+08:00

12 is Her birthdate.

13 is the date I asked her to be mine.

14 is MY birthdate.

Amazing sequence is'nt it?

Shopping

2006-03-24T15:08:00.000+08:00

Went shopping after work yesterday in KLCC. Bought four shirts. Good bargain. 50% discount. Infact, looking at the list of shirts there, we were so tempted of their colors and designs (most probably me and , not to mention their affordability. Two of those are on the left.

The best part was when I went on trying them on and Luv was busy picking up one shirt after another for me to try then looking and commenting all of them.

They are presents from my luv. So-called shirts to be worn for my new job though I bet I'll be wearing them much sooner than that. Wanna show Luv how good looking I am those new shirts heheheh.

They'll surely make me to remember her love even more whenever Im wearing them to work.

Very nice.

I Like Everything About You Luv...

2006-03-16T09:47:00.000+08:00

Luv, I should have added,
I like the way you, hit me with your arms,
I like the way you, frown when you're feeling down,
I like the way you, dress yourself up everyday,
I like the way you, smile with those lovely lips,
I like the way you, walk towards me,

...and many more I like about you.

Tribute to you luv...I Like The Way by Bodyrockers

There's so many things i like about you,
I..I just don't know where to begin,

I like the way you,look at me with those beautiful eyes,
I like the way you, act all surprised,
I like the way you, sing along,
I like the way you, always get it wrong,
I like the way you, clap your hands,
I like the way you, love to dance,
I like the way you, put your hands up in the air,
I like the way you, shake your hair,
I like the way you,like to touch,
I like the way you,stare so much,

but most of all....
Yeah..most of all....
I like the way you move.....
I like the way you move.....
I like the way you, put your hands up in the air,
I like the way you, shake your hair,
I like the way you, like to touch,
I like the way you, stare so much,

but most of all....
Yeah..most of all....
I like the way you move.....
I like the way you move.....
I like the way you, put your hands up in the air,
I like the way you, shake your hair,
I like the way you,like to touch,
I like the way you, stare so much,

but most of all....
Yeah..most of all....I like the way you move!

Opportunity hard to resist...

2006-03-14T11:09:00.000+08:00

A little less than two weeks back I received an unexpected call to my pleasant surprise. He asked me to pick up my offer letter. This is not just any offer. It's from a company who's making billions of USD annually. I can hardly contain my joy. Called luv about it and she was equally happy too! The offer letter was picked up later in the afternoon and luv read it first.

...She cried after reading it. Happy but at the same time sad. I wondered there must be something not-so-good about the offer letter. We met later in the evening when she handed me the offer letter for me to read it. I was ecstatic with the offer then she pointed where I'll be posted...PRAI. I was speechless....

There was a moment of silence for a minute.

We then talked about it. How good the offer is. How taking up the opportunity will improve my finance. The perks and benefits associated with the company. The fact that her mum wants someone of very financially stable to be the man of her daughter also affect my decision. The impact of the distance between us. The temptations and not to mention how many people kacau me and her. We discover more pros than cons of probable outcome. One sure thing, it'll boost my chance when I pinang her. And that makes me to be more determine than ever to work this out for our future, you and me luv.

Luv,
Here and now,
I promise to love faithfully, you're all I need,
Here and now,
I vow to be the one you ever need,
Your love is all I need.

I love you dearly luv...I cannot stop thinking the day my troop risik then pinang you...

Heart Is Growing Fonder

2006-03-03T15:16:00.000+08:00

I was sleeping the other night,
mind filled with your love and dream so bright,
wanna love you with all my might,
to be your shining armour knight.

I woke up, and realised tears flowing down my cheek. My heart is growing fonder of you. Luv, I can live with anybody, but I cannot live without you....

First of many...

2006-02-15T08:47:00.000+08:00

Have been playing TONIGHT I CELEBRATE MY LOVE by Peabo Bryson and Roberta Flack as my lullaby for the past 3 nights. Call me crazy and I admit I am, I am crazily in love. My mind wanders of many things while listening to the song, many firsts I've had with you babe, and many more first coming.

First time calling you, hearing your voice. Me getar inside.
First SMS we exchange. Me Excited.
First time meeting you up, the very first smile that simply melt me down. Me weak.
First glance of you. Me Amazed.
First smooch and hug of you.
First look of how you walk, how you talk.
First hand-holding while crossing the road.
First walk in the rain.
First hit I got from your free-swinging hands.
First merajuk of you that I face, our first so-called-quarrel too.
First dinner, a quick dinner, at KLCC.
First breakfast together.
First trip sending her to office.
First grocery shopping at Cold Storage.
First charter of future plan together.
First shopping, and many window shoppings together.
First trip sending you home.

All these, many more firsts, are first of many.

And tonight, with many more nights, I celebrate my love you.

Tonight I celebrate my love for you
It seems the natural thing to do
Tonight no one's gonna find us
We'll leave the world behind us
When I make love to you
Tonight I celebrate my love for you
And hope that deep inside you feel it too
Tonight our spirits will be climbing
To the sky lit up with diamonds
When I make love to you tonight

Tonight I celebrate my love for you (ooh)
And that midnight song is gonna come shining through
Tonight there'll be no distance between us
What I want most to do Is to get close to you tonight

Tonight I celebrate my love for you
And soon this old world will seem brand new
Tonight we will both discover
How friends turn into lovers
When I make love to you

Tonight I celebrate my love for you (ooh)
And that midnight song is gonna come shining through
Tonight there'll be no distance between us
What I want most to do
Is to get close to you

Tonight I celebrate my love for you

Happy Anniversary My Love

2006-02-13T10:34:00.000+08:00

3 months ago, on this date, 13th of the month, I asked you for the honor to be your man babe. And I, want to earn that trust you gave me. And that what I'll do till the day I sign off to be your beloved husband in front of the kadi.

For I thank God, meeting such a wonderful person as you. Everyday is Valentine with you around, everyday I Love You.

And I'd like to make life's journey with you my love...

Hey, have you ever tried
Really reaching out for the other side
I may be climbing on rainbows but baby, here goes

Dreams, they're for those who sleep
Life is for us to keep
And if you're wondering what this song is leading to
I want to make it with youI really think that we can make it girl

Ooh, you don't know me well
And every little thing only time will tell
If you believe the things that I do and we'll see it through

Life can be short or long
Love can be right or wrong
And if I chose the one I'd like to help me through
I'll like to make it with you

I really think that we can make it girl

Baby you know that, dreams they're for those who sleep
Life is for us to keep
And if I chose the one I'd like to help me through
I'll like to make it with you

I really think that we can make it girl...

Anything is possible with you my love

2006-02-06T14:59:00.000+08:00

NAT KING COLE - Impossible

If they had ever told me how sweet a kiss could be
I would have said impossible, impossible for me
And if they said I’d find you beyond the rainbow’s end
I would have said impossible, impossible, my friend
To dream about what might have been
Is strange enough for me
But now it seems I’m living in
A dream too beautiful to be
If they had said a moonbeam could calm a stormy sea
I would have said impossible but now at last I see
That nothing is impossible if you are here with me

I would have said impossible but now at last I see
That nothing is impossible if you are here with me

PERRY COMO - It's impossible

It's impossible, tell the sun to leave the sky, it's just impossible
It's impossible, ask a baby not to cry, it's just impossible
Can I hold you closer to me and not feel you goin' through me?
Split the second that I never think of you? Oh, how impossible

Can the ocean keep from rushin' to the shore? It's just impossible
If I had you, could I ever want for more? It's just impossible
And tomorrow, shouldya ask me for the world, somehow I'd get it
I would sell my very soul and not regret it
For to live without your love--It's just impossible

Can the ocean keep from rushin' to the shore? It's just impossible
If I had you, could I ever want for more? It's just impossible
And tomorrow, shouldya ask me for the world, somehow I'd get it
I would sell my very soul and not regret it
For to live without your love--It's just impossible

Impossible, immmmmm-impossible

depress.depress.smile

2006-02-06T12:15:00.000+08:00

DEPRESS
I was so depress last nite. Liverpool lost a match they could have easily won had they converted the chances that come begging. I forgot one thing though. We had Peter Crouch up front and of course he would miss those. This is the same guy who needs more than 24 football hours to score his first! I believe it's forgiven shall you strike rate is that abysmal if you're a central defender, but you're a forward for God's sake! Liverpool certainly doesn't need to pay a player of their own to represent opponent's extra defender by clearing chances after chances. Peter Crouch is better off sleeping on his couch than playing last nite.

DEPRESS
It took me hours to be able to even close my eyes and shut down my brain. I ended up only manage to catch a few minutes of nap. I was soooooo geram plus bengang plus irritated plus rasa-nak-pukul-orang. Woke up half dead. Panda eyes.

SMILE
Get myself up, performed my Subh prayer, had a cold morning shower then getting myself prepared to work. While getting prepared, called my loved one, and how the sweetest voice of all, calling me "luv" simply sweeten and make my day. Love you.

I Got Hungry Eyes

2006-02-03T13:58:00.000+08:00

I hung out at Coffee Bean near Ampang Point last Sunday (29 Jan) with a guy friend of mine after our CNY excursion at Mid Valley. Had Ice Blended Vanilla...Yummy. Can't beat my favorite Iced Caramel Macchiato I normally have at Starbucks though. Anyhow, me and him went upstairs and sat at the siesta section where you sit bersila as they have japanese coffee table. Considering it was a CNY holiday and I haven't been to this Coffee Bean for a long while, I was quite surprise to see plenty of good looking women having their drinks at few tables away. No wonder this is one of my friend's favorite place to hang out. He's single anyway.

My eyes and his went from one woman to another. A group of young women in their nice kebayas probably just came back from a majlis kahwin at two tables away, one minah salleh and a malay lady at the next siesta section to our left, and then there's a group of 4 ladies with one of them showing off her Apple iBook. Me and him were looking at these ladies and commenting each and every one of them. But my mind wasn't there. My eyes were hungry...Hungry for someone else - my babe my love. I feel the hunger every time I look at her. My eyes simply cannot get enough of looking at her. And then, I ended up humming Eric Carmen's Hungry Eyes.

I’ve been meaning to tell you
I’ve got this feelin’ that won’t subside
I look at you and I fantasize
You are mine tonight
Now I’ve got you in my sights

With these hungry eyes
One look at you and I can’t disguise
I’ve got hungry eyes
I feel the magic between you and i

I want to hold you so hear me out
I want to show you what love’s all about
Darlin’ tonight
Now I’ve got you in my sights

With these hungry eyes
One look at you and I can’t disguise
I’ve got hungry eyes
I feel the magic between you
And I’ve got hungry eyes
Now I’ve got you in my sights
With these hungry eyes
Now did I take you by surprise

I need you to see
This love was meant to be

I’ve got hungry eyes
One look at you and I can’t disguise
I’ve got hungry eyes
I feel the magic between you
And I’ve got hungry eyes
Now I’ve got you in my sights
With those hungry eyes
Did I take you by surprise

With my hungry eyes

Babe, my hungry eyes want to see that face of yours before they close, and want to see the same baru-bangun-tidur face when I wake up.

What Do People Think Of Your Face Quiz

2006-01-26T16:40:00.000+08:00

What Your Face Says

At first glance, people see you as warm and well-balanced.
Overall, your true self is moody and dynamic.
With friends, you seem thoughtful and interested in ideas.
In love, you seem mysterious and interesting.
In stressful situation, you seem like you're oblivious to the stress.

What Do People Think Of Your Face?

Where do I begin

2006-01-24T14:40:00.000+08:00

Where do I begin? I was suffering from many loves that never meant to be, I persevered. I got hurt, but I picked myself piece by piece everytime. My heart got battered though I looked fine physically. I never intended to fall in love, never planned to like someone, it just happened. Maybe God put me to go through all these to make me to learn about something.

And one day, someone attracted my attention. Initially, I resisted the temptation. For I don't want to be just another fool who rush into something. Then, I met her up. There, I saw a smile that weakened me, a lovely face that my eyes can not get tired of looking, blunt and honest personality I feel so comfortable, and...I felt something inexplicable that moment.

From then onwards, I explored her. She simply stands out being herself. Practical and lovable, a bit temper and food lover, fashion conscious and fabulous. I'd trade any Miss Universe for her, but I wouldn't trade her for anybody.

To the one who give my life a new beginning - my babe. A tribute to you...

Where do I begin
To tell the story of how great a love can be
The sweet love story that is older than the sea
The simple truth about the love she brings to me
Where do I start

With her first hello
She gave new meaning to this empty world of mine
There'd never be another love, another time
She came into my life and made the living fine
She fills my heart

She fills my heart with very special things
With angels' songs , with wild imaginings
She fills my soul with so much love
That anywhere I go I'm never lonely
With her around, who could be lonely
I reach for her hand-it's always there

How long does it last
Can love be measured by the hours in a day
I have no answers now but this much I can say
I know I'll need her till the stars all burn away
And she'll be there...

Smell of our love

2006-01-18T10:12:00.000+08:00

These are the smell of our love, DKNY Be Delicious. Got them for my birthday. One for me, the other for my love. The one in brown color is DKNY Men and the light green is for the fairer sex.

They smell great! The scent is pretty sensuous and classy at the same time. It's like you're making dirty dancing and tango moves simultaneously. Addictive...Refreshing. Can't stop sniffing at my love...Somehow am breathing her everywhere. Hmmm...Delicious.

Go check them out here http://dkny.com/control/fragrance/~type=home

Flowers of my love

2006-01-11T09:35:00.000+08:00

Since I can not buy her flowers, not for now at least, and she keeps on reminding me that!, so so i write this post instead. She warned me a few minutes earlier over the phone, "If you buy me flowers, I'll throw them away! Don't you ever waste your money on them.". Don't you think she's marvellous? Other women could have begged for roses every date. That's why I always remind myself that I've met countless prettier women, I've seen sweeter smiles, I've seen sexier ladies, but they all are not her, no one is even close to be as magnificent as her. She's special. She's just practical. She's simply adorable.

She drools over Lilies and Gerberas. Infact, these blooms will adorn our wedding day. That will be the day I'll shower her with her favorite flowers.

Gerbera

Common names:
gerbera, gerbera daisy

Description:
Daisy-like blooms grow to 5 inches wide with layers of thin petals. They also grow in many sizes including miniature varieties; single-flowered or double-flowered; and spider varieties. Colors include white, cream, yellow, gold, pink, magenta, salmon, orange, red and bi-colors.

Lily

Common names:
lily, Asiatic lily, Oriental lily

Description:
Trumpet-shaped flowers grow to a 6-inch diameter. Stems grow to 3 feet long, carrying four to eight blossoms. Sparse foliage is dark green. Because blooms open at various times, most lilies live one to two weeks. Colors include white, yellow, pink, red and orange; many have a deeper color (freckles) on the inner petal.

Reference from www.aboutflowers.com.

Happy New Year 2006

2006-01-03T09:55:00.000+08:00

Late posting but I hope it's not too late to greet HAPPY NEW YEAR still. It's been pretty hectic lately - moving out to new office, meetings, rushing for deadlines, and catching Liverpool matches.

I hope it'll be a blessed year, full of love and prosperity to all. And of course talking about NY is not complete without NY resolutions. Mine? Ehem...The 5 that makes the list for this year are...(drum beats behind)
1) To reduce my smoking index from current a pack of 20 for 3 - 4 days to a pack a week
2) To get more money and save more too (Nak merisik my babe)
3) To be a better man
4) To love and appreciate people close to me more
5) To be holier

From one who used to be called a walking chimney, I think the 1st one is the hardest to accomplish. But by hook or by crook I gotta do it, for health and for love reasons.

Goodbye old office, Welcome new office.

2005-12-23T13:39:00.000+08:00

This is the pic of my previous working place. Err...still working at the same company it's just that I've been relocated to a place I can call it "tempat jin bertendang". I mean way different compared to before where I had the view of KLCC everyday and now am surrounded by trees, hills and clear view of the skies...

"I can see clearly now the rain has gone, I can see all obstacles in my way"...Why am I singing this song? No idea...

And this one, is where I hibernate now....OOpppss, where I am working I mean. Nothing change really. Her pictures are always around. And off course, she's always close to my heart too.

You're my everything

2005-12-16T12:19:00.000+08:00

The song that makes my sweet love lingers in my mind before I went to sleep last nite...

Na na na na ... You're my everything
The sun that shines above you makes the blue bird sing
The stars that twinkle way up in the sky
Tell me I'm in love

When I kiss your lips
I feel the rolling thunder to my finger tips
And all the while my head in a spin
Deep with in
I'm in love

You're my everything
and nothing Really matters but the love you bring
You're my everything
To see you in the morning with those big brown eyes

You're my everything
Forever and the day I need you close to me
You're my everything
You never have to worry never fear
For I am near
when I hold you tight
there's nothing that can harm you in the lonely night
I'll come to you and keep you safe and warm
Yes, so strong my love

You're my everything
I live upon the land and see the sky above
I'll swim within oceans sweet and warm
There's no storm my love

Then recite my sleeping prayers before I close my eyes: Pray to Allah; to have a good nite sleep, to be able to breath another day, to be healthy, to dimurahkan rezeki the following day, and to have jodoh with you babe.

Home sweet home...

2005-12-14T14:52:00.000+08:00

For those of you who haven't been to Sabah, or Kudat especially, perhaps these pictures may entice you to visit the Land Below The Wind one fine day.

On the left in particular shows the Tip of Borneo at Simpang Mengayau, Kudat. You got me right. It's REALLY the tip of borneo! It's really situated at the very end of north of Borneo.

These pictures are courtesy of http://www.trekearth.com. More of them are available there. Pictures of Kudat in particular can be seen here http://www.trekearth.com/gallery/Asia/Malaysia/East/Sabah/Kudat/page1.htm

Another pic of the tip slightly further aback from the previous pic. Wedding lunch venue. My Wedding! The side of the long walkway will be decorated by flowers + pink flags+ cloths. Guests will be brought to the wedding floor by shaded beca from allocated parking bay nearby.

Theme; pink-ish. Everybody will be in pink, even the caterer, that'll be the dress code. Wedding dress; pinkish + songket. See the floor tiles, it's pink too!

No kompang please!

View of the place at dusk. The other wedding idea: my romantic wedding dinner venue will be something of this nature. The side of the long walkway will be decorated by artificial OR real torch if nature permits (it's pretty windy there). At the levelled end is where me and my babe will stand, wedding floor, in front of respected guests.

Theme; similar to daylight wedding - pink-ish. Everybody will be in pink, that's the dress code. Wedding dress; pinkish + songket. And there'll be a small band of orchestra + singers playing "From this moment" of Shania Twain - our wedding song, "Woman" and "Oh my love" of John Lennon, "So Amazing" of Luther Vandross, and many other great songs, while everybody's having their sumptous meal.

The Tip of Borneo from afar. Magnificent isn't it...

Happy 24th Birthday My Love

2005-12-12T11:06:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to the woman,
whom I want to share my life with,
whom I want to be with at everyday, every birthday,
whom I want to sayang with all my might.

and most important of all, simply love me in return. And I love you too babe. Multiply my love by infinity, take it to the depths of forever and you'll still only have a glimpse of how much I love you.

reminds me of the song we sung together this morning...
I want you to want me.
I need you to need me.
I’d love you to love me.

I can never get enough of you...Happy Birthday again my love.

My Life Rating

2005-12-07T12:23:00.000+08:00

This is my life rating. 7 out of 10! I've amazed myself! LOL. I'm fairly happy with life. I believe life can always get better especially if you are not one who are easily contented with life. But, am thankful. Thankful for whatever God has given me, be it good or bad. Look at them positively. They all are learning episodes about life. And financial mistakes that hit me hard before is something I confess will only make me to manage it better in the future though you can have my words money is never enough no matter how much you make.

Anyhow, you can do the test yourself at http://www.monkeyquiz.com/life/rate_my_life.html. See how you fare.

My Woman, My Babe, My Everything...

2005-11-26T11:21:00.000+08:00

A tribute to a wonderful woman whom I want to share my life with, and who captured my heart, my mind with her tender, love, and care. I dedicate the song "Woman by John Lennon" for you.

Woman I can hardly express,
My mixed emotion at my thoughtlessness,
After all I'm forever in your debt,
And woman I will try express,
My inner feelings and thankfullness,
For showing me the meaning of succsess,
oooh well, well, oooh well, well,

Woman I know you understand
The little child inside the man,
Please remember my life is in your hands,
And woman hold me close to your heart,
However, distant don't keep us apart,
After all it is written in the stars, oooh well, well, oooh well, well,

Woman please let me explain,
I never mean(t) to cause you sorrow or pain,
So let me tell you again and again and again,
I love you (yeah, yeah) now and forever,
I love you (yeah, yeah) now and forever,
I love you (yeah, yeah) now and forever,
I love you (yeah, yeah)...

Babe, life hasn't been easy to our love but I believe all the struggles battling every obstacle, barrier, and every discouragement, will measure how much we want to be together. Amid all these, they certainly making me loving, wanting and needing you even more than before. But surely this is a war I cannot fight alone babe. Give me enough love, and I'll win any war.

And I'd like to quote Anthony Hopkins in one of his movies, (he was saying this to his screen daughter), "Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with? Fall head over heels. I say find someone you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him(her)? Forget your head and listen to your heart. I'm not hearing any heart. Run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll come back. Because, the truth is there is no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love - well, you haven't lived a life at all. You have to try. Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived."

These words make me strong, and with you, your love, your smile make me even stronger babe. And though I can't be with you every night, I know my heart is by your side.

We'll prevail from all these adversities babe. You have my words. I love you like crazy and want to love you even crazier.

Sunday...Nov 6

2005-11-07T10:23:00.000+08:00

How ironic it can be...I had almost similar Raya this year as compared to last year. Let's see,
- Spent it with my buddy Shine
- Lunch at banana leaf (forgot the name of the place) next to Hong Leong bank. Highly recommended! But you gotta be there early especially for lunch and dinner as to avoid long queue during these peak hours. We then off to Starbucks at Telawi for our regular coffee sips. We both used to be Starbucks junkies those days.
- Both were on Sunday!

We were talking and sharing about almost everything, my life and hers. The good news, she and Steven is buying a new house in USJ. Truly happy for her. And me talking about the love of my life, my babe. And then she called! Panjang umur. We were talking for a while but it feels so short. Will never get enough of her voice. Managed to get her talking to Shine. Wishing my sweet baby to meet up with Shine one day. None of my ex-es made it to that stage.

Anyhow, after the looking-at-cars-and-people session at Starbucks, I went to nearby mosque to become holy for Asr and she went looking-looking at Blook, SASA.

Shortly, we went scouring around inside Bangsar Village. First, we checked out Apple's NANO at First floor. OMG! It's one sexy-sweet-sleek gadget. Color monitor plus simple yet sleek design get her to drool over it. It holds only 2Gb or 4Gb size of Mp3s but that'll carry approximately 1000 songs. Enough kan. Nobody listen to that much songs in a day, do you?

Then we spent the next half an hour getting in-and-out of three lovely "ladies" on Ground Floor. Their names: WRX, Legacy and Forrester of Subaru. LOL, you must be thinking of sexy ladies eh. WRX, the rally bred will suit those ah-bengs and Petter Solberg-wannabes just nice. Legacy is for those high-flying executives, and me was caressing the frameless window endlessly. Forrester will be just nice for mums to ferry their kids to school, rush to wet market then dash back home in no time. These are cars that long for us to push the throttle to the max and listen to the burbles of its boxer engine. Intoxicating. Unfortunately the prices are toxins for your wallet. It'll cost arms and legs for people like me. Dream on Syah.

We round up the Bangsar Village trip by her shopping some groceries before heading home picked up by her beloved Steven.

Thanks for the company Shine.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI

2005-11-02T13:28:00.000+08:00

To All Muslims, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Let's celebrate our triumph in controlling and managing our nafsu in ramadhan and may the lessons learned in the past month will make us a better muslim.

There's hope for more broadband in Malaysia..

2005-10-26T15:49:00.000+08:00

JARING recently launched its ADSL service rivaling the old taiko Streamyx. Actually they launched this service quite some time back and plenty of grouses heard among many Malaysians of its almost "hideously" expensive service and equipment. But fret not, it was a premium service of ADSL with VoIP.

The new package, http://www.jaring.my/broadband/index_business.html?cont=flite_package, is much more affordable and mind you they're giving away free ADSL modems during the promotional period! Great ain't it! This is another classic case of David vs. Goliath but by putting the right strategy, I believe JARING will prevail. I hope they do.

On the VoIP concern, VoIP calls result in great call savings due to its nature of going over IP instead of the more common fixed line. Good news isn't it? But unfortunately, due to the brilliance of our regulatory and the local telcos, adoption of new technologies are pretty slow with these people are more concern about themselves than making Malaysia a better nation. Welll...This is a country where the broadband penetration is at sluggish 1% eventhough we started broadband earlier than South Korea. All thanks to the MCMC.

BTW, you can check out other JARING offerings here, http://www.jaring.my/index.html. You could be forgiven if you think I'm a staunch JARING supporter. YES, I am. The least I want to see in Malaysia is TMNet monopolizing the market. They have almost absolute share of the fixed line market to the extent that they have the prerogative power to service which area they want to! That is certainly not good for the people, and Malaysia as a whole.

I'm calling my fellow Malaysians to support JARING for a better Broadband coverage in Malaysia.

JARING, you have every bit of my good luck wishes.

I need you babe...

2005-10-26T15:37:00.000+08:00

Babe...I was listening to this song and then you dance in my mind...LOVELY.

Penny lover, don't walk on by
Penny lover, don't you make me cry
Can't you see girl, who my heart's beating for
You're the only girl that I adore

The first time I saw you
Oh, you looked so fine
And I had a feeling
One day you'd be mine
Honey you came along and captured my heart
Now my love is somewhere lost in your kiss
When I'm all alone it's you that I miss
Girl a love like yours is hard to resist
Oh, Oh, Ooh, Ooh, Oh

Penny lover, my love's on fire
Penny lover, you're my one desire
Tell me baby could this be true
That I could need someone, like I need you

Nights warm and tender
Lying next to you
Girl I surrender
Oh, what more can I do
I've spent all of my life in search of your love
Now there's one more thing I'd like to say
Don't you ever take your sweet love away
Girl I'll do anything, just please stay
Oh, Oh

I don't understand it,
Oh what's come over me
But I'm not gonna worry, no not anymore
'Cause when a man's in love, he's only got one story
That's why my love is somewhere lost in your kiss
When I'm lost and alone it's you that I miss
With a love like yours, it's hard to resist
Ooh, Ooh, Oh

Penny lover, don't you walk on by (don't you walk on by)
Penny lover, don't you make me cry (don't you make me cry baby)
Penny lover, don't you walk on by (don't you walk on by)
Penny lover, don't you make me cry (Oh penny baby)
Penny lover, don't you walk on by (don't you walk on by)
I remember the first time I saw you baby
Penny lover, don't you make me cry
You had the look in your eye, you had the look in your eye, Yeah, Yeah
Ooh pretty baby
I just wanted to reachout and touch you baby
I just want to reach out and hold ya, I want to reach out and say Ooh, Ooh
Don't make me cry
I wanna talk about you everyday (Penny lover)
Need you, need you baby ...

Resipi Masakan Cinta

2005-10-24T13:13:00.000+08:00

Read this somewhere and I find it nice and amusing at the same time.

Bahan:
1 lelaki sihat,
1 wanita sihat,
100% Komitmen,
2 pasang restu orang tua,
1 botol kasih sayang murni.

Bahan Perhiasan:
1 botol besar humor,
25 gr rekreasi,
1 bungkus doa,
2 sendok teh telefon2an, SMS
Semuanya dikacau hingga merata dan mengembang.

Tips:
Pilih lelaki dan wanita yang benar-benar matang dan seimbang. Jangan yang satu terlalu tua dan yang lainnya terlalu muda kerana dapat mempengaruhi kelazatan (sebaiknya dibeli di supermarket bernama TEMPAT IBADAH atau TEMPAT KERJA, walaupun agak jual mahal tapi mutunya terjamin.) Jangan beli di pasar yang bernama DISKO atau PARTY kerana walaupun modelnya bagus dan harum baunya tapi kadang menipu konsumer atau kadang menggunakan zat pewarna yang boleh merosak kesihatan. Gunakan Kasih sayang cap "IMAN, HARAP & KASIH" yang telah mendapatkan penghargaan ISO dari Jabatan Kesihatan dan Kerohanian.

Cara Memasak:
Lelaki dan Wanita dicuci bersih, buang semua masa lampaunya sehingga tersisa niat yang murni. Siapkan bekas yang telah digaul dengan komitmen dan restu orang tua secara merata. Masukkan niat yang murni ke dalam lbekas dan panggang dengan api cinta, merata sekitar 30 minit di depan kadi.Biarkan di dalam bekas tadi dan sirami dengan semua rencah di atas. Kuih siap dinikmati.

Catatan:
Kuih ini dapat dinikmati oleh pembuatnya seumur hidup dan paling enak dinikmati dalam keadaan kasih yang hangat. Tapi kalau sudah agak dingin, Tambahkan lagi humor segar secukupnya, rekreasi sesuai selera, serta beberapa potong doa kemudian dihangatkan lagi di oven "Tempat Ibadah" marak diatas api cinta. Setelah mulai hangat, jangan lupa telefon2an bila berjauhan.

You'll Never Walk Alone II

2005-10-17T15:48:00.000+08:00

What a weekend that was vs. Blackburn. We won only after making lives difficult ourselves. IT's true that we never had good results against them in recent years, but mostly its because of our owndoing.

My summary of our main strikers,
1) We need Cisse. Yes, he missed host of chances especially all the wide headers.But, we always looked dangerous with him around. His presence alone get the opposing defenders away from our other players and that create spaces for other.

2) Crouch, am getting irritatingly dissapointed with him - for not creating enough chances nor dangerous enough in the 6 yard box. Hey, we might as well stucked with Heskey if we want him to linger in the center!

3) Morientes, or as he affectionately known as Moro, was a pale shadow of himself. Sorely lacking match fitness. In one instance, he could have easily poked in the ball into the goal than missing it after the goalkeeper had spilled riise's shot.

So...take your pick. I'll stick with Cisse, then choose his partner: Crouch or Moro.

Ready to take a chance with you babe...

2005-10-17T10:55:00.000+08:00

"Thanks babe", it means the world to me. It's for that someone who make me realise there's much more happiness in this world for me.

Babe, I'll take my time exploring you. Let's take one step at a time. Let's do it on our terms. I want us to realise we being together for wanting to be together - not for filling up empty spaces in our hearts, not for mere company for being lonely.

This song for you babe...

You remind me I live in a shell,
Safe from the past,and doing' okay,but not very well.
No jolts, no surprises,
No crisis arises,
My life goes along as it should,
it's all very nice,but not very good.
And I'm Ready To Take A Chance Again,
Ready to put my love on the line with you.
Been living with nothing to show for it,
You get what you get when you go for it,
And I'm Ready To Take Chance Again with you.
When she left me in all my despair,
I just held on,My hopes were all gone.
Then I found you there.
And I'm Ready To Take A Chance Again
Ready To Take A Chance Again with you, With you.

Babe...I want you. And am ready to take a chance with you.

Risk

2005-09-30T15:47:00.000+08:00

According to Oxford Dictionary, risk is ,
1 a situation involving exposure to danger.
2 the possibility that something unpleasant will happen.
3 a person or thing causing a risk or regarded in relation to risk.

Risk taking is free. And whatever we do, routines or instances, have risks of its own. Just look at the list below,

To laugh is to risk appearing the fool
To weep is to risk appearing sentimental
To reach out for another is to risk involvement
To expose feelings is to risk exposing true self
To place your ideas, your dreams before the crowd is to risk their loss
To love is to risk not being loved in return
To live is to risk dying
To hope is to risk despair
To try is to risk failure

But risk must be taken, because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing. The person who risks nothing, does nothing, has nothing, and is nothing. He may avoid suffering and sorrow, but he simply cannot learn, feel, change, grow, love, live. Chained by his certitudes, he is a slave, he has forfeited freedom.

I read one old chinese saying "he who is afraid to roll the dice will never get a six".

How does this apply to love? This is where it'll get messy. Either you want to go for the best lady in town that fullfill your emotional and physical wants and needs with suitors queing to pinang her but risking rejection for you aren't the best guy in town, OR, you just settle for an ordinary lady and making the most out of it.

But no danger in going for the best right? So what if something upleasant will happen? Just chin up and pick up yourself for the next adventure! Sound easy but it may turn harder and harder to pick up the pieces after your battle-hardened heart is full of "scars".

Hmmm...I've mentioned about this before, have I? Don't let my ramblings spoil your weekend mood. Let me pick up the pieces of me...

One on One, Shine on Shine

2005-09-30T12:12:00.000+08:00

One on One, Shine on Shine

Good reading. Some of you readers could be forgiven thinking this blog full of rantings, tantrums of a hot-blooded woman after reading this one. But...you'll enjoy it. I know I do. And I know I enjoy knowing this buddy too.

We may not spend hours together sipping coffees and sharing secrets and stories at Starbucks like we used to but you're always dear to me.

Keep on writing Shine.

Love Is A Paradox...

2005-09-01T13:23:00.000+08:00

I've known M for years. This is the guy who has the sweetest of heart to manjakan his loved one. He started his love life late though as he told me he wanted to concentrate on his study and to get good grades being a filial son as he is. The problem of being a nice guy is...You'll end up hurting yourself badly, your heart and feeling. I ended up listening to him telling me of his ex-es.

X1, is chinese, part-time model, part-time saleswoman, full-time mahjoong player. "full-time Mahjoong player??", I asked. "Yup. Daily and every weekend without fail", he replied. "And me banker at times, the one who provides her the money to gamble", he continued". "Oh ya, at least she taught me conversational Cantonese", he added with a grin on his face. You are fair and looked like Chinese, so it's good for you! the voices in my head screamed to him hahahhah. There are times that he simply drives to her house in wee hours cause she isn't feeling well...A good 40km for a one way trip. And he lost his virginity to this lady. I was laughing my lungs out when he told me that. It's destined to fail...Because of the gambling habit actually hehehhe.

X2, a corporate lady of mixed-parentage background. I said "cool. she must be not short of suitors". Everything seems perfect. It's all fireworks. She loves Ocean Deep, He dances to Suddenly. She longs for bakeries, He eats buns almost everyday. Went to KLCC just wanna have a glimpse of her. But...It's destined to fail too. "There were too many secrets. I couldn't call at this time, that time. I couldnt visit her home when she falls ill", he said regretfully then continue, "It lasted for a while, for love, lust...". He didn't tell me what are the secrets though I could have guessed that she's married! No brainer. Recipe for a disaster - like another very good friend, S, told me.

X3, a system engineer. NO NO NO...not the kinda dork you see inside a cubicle with glasses that a sight to be hold. This one he said, a trendy one. And yeah talking about trendy, "she indulges in shopping therapy every time she feels down". No offence but, which woman doesn't? One thing though, he didn't "touch" this one. His reason - he didn't feel like he loves her deep enough.

One thing he admitted, along the way, when he's single, he wasn't the best man around, let alone being a good Muslim. He's a walking chimney (chain smoker), he drank like a fish, and he changed sleeping partner week-in week-out (He duly explained he was bragging more than anything else to explain the frequency of his non committal nature). "I was single for godsake", he screamed. I said, "Thank God you changed". "Yeah, thank God. I was too far astray from the right path". Philosophically he questioned me, "Should you wear your heart on your sleeve and give you all or should you be cold and be protective of your heart?". I was dumbfounded. I had no answer for that. It left my heart tickled hard.

Finally, after all the mind-bashing of "horrific" tales on love, I asked him, "Are you seeing anybody now?". He gleefully answered with a shrug, "I don't know. Probably. Love is complicated."

It made me thinking. You can give you all in a relationship but that's when you're most vulnerable. Life is traveled but once, which makes it all the more necessary that we have little regret over the path/s we take in this journey of life. And it was then that I realized this, that some of us, albeit our heartaches and vulnerabilities, are just the way we are, the incorrigible emotional fools, because that's the life some of us get on best with.

Script For a Jester's Tear

2005-08-29T10:30:00.000+08:00

Never thought I'd be writing this for myself.
Never thought I'd be dedicating this for my lost love.
Never ever crossing my mind losing you...

So here I am once more in the playground of the broken hearts,
One more experience, one more entry in a diary, self penned
Yet another emotional suicide overdosed on sentiment and pride
Too late to say I love you,Too late to restage the play
Abandoning the relics in my playground of yesterday.
I'm losing on the swings, I'm losing on the roundabouts
Too much, Too soon, too far, to go,Too late to play, the game is over.

Yet another emotional suicide overdosed on sentiment and pride
I'm losing on the swings, I'm losing on the roundabouts, the game is over
Too late to say I love you,Too late to restage the play
The game is over.

I act the role in classic style of A martyr carved with a twisted smile
To bleed the lyric for this song
To write the rites to right my wrongs
An epitaph to a broken dream to Exorcise this silent scream
A scream that's born from sorrow.

I never did write that love song the words just never seemed to flow
Now sad in reflection
Did I gaze through perfection
And examine the shadows on the other side of morning
And examine the shadows on the other side of mourning
Promised wedding now a wake
The fool escaped from paradise will look over his shoulder and cry
Sit and chew on daffodils and struggle to answer why?
As you grow up and leave the playground where you kissed your prince
And found your frog,
Remember the Jester that showed You tears, the script for tears.

So I'll hold my peace forever when you wear your bridal gown
In the silence of my shame the mute that sang the siren's
Song has gone solo in the game
I've gone solo in the game
But the game is over
Can you still say you love me
Can you still say you love me
Can you still say that you love me...

Monday blues...

2005-08-29T07:59:00.000+08:00

What a song this is...Never fail to pinch my heart till it bleeds.

Jika Kau Bercinta - Allycats
Jika Kau bercinta lagi
cintalah sepenuhnya aaa aaa aaa
jika kau bercinta lagi
jagalah kau hatinya aaa aaa aaa

engkau yang memilihnya
tanpa memikirkan tentang diriku
kini ku hanya dapat berdoa
agar berbahagia kau disampingnya
aaa aaa aaa

Jika Kau bercinta lagi
cintalah sepenuhnya aaa aaa aaa
jika kau bercinta lagi
jagalah kau hatinya aaa aaa aaa

aku tak dapat menghalang
engkau punya kemahuan sendiri
biarku hidup hanya mengenang
peristiwa yang tak dapat ku lupa
aaa aaa aaa

kini aku hanya dapat berdoa
agar berbahagia kau disampingnya
selamat tinggal aku mengundurkan diri

You'll never walk alone

2005-08-25T12:47:00.000+08:00

I've had this song planted in my head for the past 20 years, and I'll ensure it'll always be there. For Liverpool has always been my passion, for Liverpool has always been my obsession, for Liverpool has always been my inspiration.

Trust me, when you're 3-nil down at half time, singing the song with all your might, with tears flowing gleefully on your cheek at Half Time break, came back after the break equalising 3-3 then win on penalties, you'll know what I mean.

When you walk through a storm
Hold your chin up high
And don't be afraid of the dark.
At the end of a stormIs a golden sky
And the sweet, silver song of a lark.

Walk on, through the wind,
Walk on, through the rain,
Though your dreams be tossed and blown.
Walk on, walk on with hope in your heart,
And you'll never walk alone,
You'll never walk alone.

I've laughed and cried, have had joy and sadness with Liverpool. But nothing can change my love for Liverpool FC. YOU'LL NEVER WALK ALONE.

Yaaawwwwnnnn...

2005-08-22T08:32:00.000+08:00

What a weekend...Bittersweet - the best word to describe it.

Liverpool won, as I had expected albeit showing a disjointed performance. It wasn't a-stroll-in-the-park win but the margin could have been larger had Morientes point his bullet header straight into goal, had Cisse tapping one chance in where the slightest of contact could have put the ball in instead of a kung-fu kick, and yeah Cisse again the culprit for kicking a one-on-one chance into the sky! A tap on Sunderland's shoulder for making it hard for Liverpool to fight for the 3 points but they're certainly few classes behind Liverpool in every department sans effort.

McLaren won through Kimi of which could have had a 1-2 finish had Montoya didn't spin in the 2nd last lap and the fact that he was rammed from behind a lap earlier didn't help matters. It damaged his diffuser and compounding the difficulty in managing the car with worn-out front tyres! And so there was the lucky boy Alonso gratefully taking 2nd...gracias. The 1st potentially very lucky F1 Champion indeed. But chin up Kimi. The game isn't over till it's over. You are much more talented than lucky boy albeit unlucky with all the reliability problems that McLaren is facing all season. You could have ran away with the F1 champions title.

And yeah...The long yawn is not because of the wins by Liverpool and McLaren but me sleeping late. Picked up my bro late yesterday's evening, went to mamak for a teh ais before heading home. 1am, did some chit chats with him, watched Scrubs, then ZzzZZzzz...